Blogger Perez Hilton spoke with The Advocate’s Benoit Denizet-Lewis about his recent and now infamous scuffle with the Blackeyed Peas’ Will.i.am and admits that in the heat of the moment his rage almost brought him to hurl a racial slur at the African American singer.
“I thought about calling him the n word,” he says, “but I thought the f word was even worse. I was so filled with hate at that moment because I was hated on so much, and I reacted in the worst way possible. Then I went on to make a bunch of other mistakes. I shouldn’t have made the video. I shouldn’t have released so many statements. But what’s come out of all of this is that I’ve learned so much about myself, and I’m in a much better place. I’m actually thankful that it happened. As cheesy as it may sound, I had almost a spiritual moment when I just let all of the anger and worry go and am now filled with peace, happiness, and wisdom.”
Blindie is not surprised by Hilton’s “almost” racial slur considering he already called Will.i.am a “faggot” and he usually expresses himself by drawing childish and vulgar doodles on celebrity photos.
We just love Gawker’s description of Hilton as the “bitchy/sad blogger” who “comes across as lonely and pretending…Basically he’s any young gay guy with identity problems, only he’s crafted a big pink dreadnought of a platform to loudly air his insecurities.